Been there…Done that….So what?

In the middle of invigilating the pmr exam, I thought; today is d last day that i would c my husb.

he’s leavin to Bristol.uk, with high fever.

bcoz of dat, we haven’t got d chance 2 go shoe shopping 2gether.

he’ll b wearin histrainers; hopefully he’ll buy a new pair when he’s there.

A pair of good shoes is very important when u’re going 2 uk-very cold weather.

btw, the children sort of knew dat he’s not gonna b around 4 quite somtime,coz they’d always wanna do sthng with their abah.

‘nak dukung ngan abahhh’..

‘nak mandi ngan abahhh’

even luqman,’nak berrok ngan abahhhh’

Last nite, we had this going-away-makan2-doa selamat cum solat tarawikh at my folks house in putrajaya.

suddenly it struck me,o ohhh…

will it b enough food4 every1?

will there be….?

there were so many people that some of d women had 2 stand up while breaking fast.

my mom n dad were d worriest of all.

it showed from their faces..

i felt guilty at 1st…

4 cancelling my dad’s choices of menu…

he ordered for 100 people but i changed it 2 only 70.

but, i only followed what my husb said." Cukuuuuupp." like an ustaz said, biar sikit, asalkan berkaattt.

So, i obliged; still a bit uncertain.

Guess what? in d end, all of my relatives got to have some take away treats n just a bit was left 4 my folks to ‘makan sahur’

Alhamdulilllaaaahhhh….I was so grateful that i listened 2 my husband.

my relatives also commented on d food.

they said it was delicious.

well, it was ok, i think, just ordinary food like plain rice, beef cooked w coconut milk and green cili api,stir frie beands w prawns, chicken cooked w soy sauce(meant 4 children)

some salads w sambal belacan; n thank god,

a whole lot of other dessert such as kuih seri muka,talam keladi berlauk,muffins,jelly,bubur kacang,water melon, kuih lapis cendol,etc. the guests brought those…rezekiiiii

Thank you Allah, u r d most Merciful of alll!

tonite,….we’ll b going 2 klia to send my husb. he’ll be away 4 quite sometime…

i pray 2 god to give me strength n patience to handle my 2 kids alone….

i pray endlessly 4 my one n only love of my life…abangg

i’m willing 2 sacrifice…to c him having the master’s degree in his possession…insyaAllahhh

welll….balqis will b 2 yrs old 2morrow…

Oct.6th 2006..

Happy Birthday my little princess…

u light up my day…my life…

Mamma loves u sooo much…

Luqman-3 yrs 8 mnths

Balqis 2 yers 2 morrow

abang- 30 yrs 9 days..

ina-29yrs10months

we r family………

masa kecik2 dulu, tahu pasal cinta sebab….tengok cerita melayu, mesti ada cerita cintan-cintun. eiiii, rasa geli bila diri sendiri nak sebut perkataan cinta. rasa mcm…" I look stupid when i speak Malay"  hahahahahha… lol! love ke, cinta ke, sama je…however,there’s one thing that keeps popping into my mind , do i love enough? i mean, i love to love, i love God, my family, my relatives, my friends, everyone i know or going to know… but, i’m not sure whether i have shown them enough, ‘coz a lot of us were brought up the old fashion way, we don’t verbally say ‘ Aku sayang padamu’.  in fact, can u imagine yourself saying…  ‘(……use your name) saaaaayang ayah/ mak/ tok/ nenek/ wan/ etc’. honestly, for most malays, it’s not a habit. we all know, kita mesti beritahu semua org tu yg kita sayang kat diorang. tapi, suuusah sangat, betul x? kadang2 tu, kita rasa, ada ke org sayang kat kita? ada ke org yg terfikirkan kita?….hmm, korang pernah x rasa camtu? ….kalau boleh, jom kita tukar culture lama tu…kasih sayang mesti kena cakapkan…kalau berani, try, pastu tengok reaction org tu mcm mana. then tell me…lagipun, kalau kita cakap elok2, takkan depa nak marah kot. for me, i want my children to say that they love me n their dad, granddads,grandmas, etc…Jangan sampai org tu dah meninggalkan kita,(nauzubillah…mintak depa panjang umur), baru menyesal…"oh! i should have done this/ I should have said that…and the list goes…". so, don’t wait till it’s too late…

if u have any feedback, do share your point of view…

till then, I LOVE ALL OF YOUUUU, MORE THAN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD AND BACK AGAIN!